after being dead for so long, im finally back!! *ta-ta* yeah.. after energy left singapore i also dun have energy anymore.. its back to school work, projects and studies... *long sigh* so one day after watching wan yu, i still dun feel like sleeping, dun feel like using the comp.. jus dun feel like doing anything. then this question came to my mind - who exactly am i?
yea, who exactly am i?! im someone who dun know myself well. i dunno how i feel, i dunno what i like, i dunno what i hate, i jus dunno myself. the list under 'favorites' in my blog here is what i ASSUME i like. but do i really like them? are those really my favourites? i dunno~ those that i dislike.. do i really hate them? why do i hate them? i dunno~ its jus feel weird. i know nothing about myself except my name and where i live and yea im a sagittarius. then? so? full stop. i feel so puzzled. really. i've been living on this planet like for almost 18 years and i always assume i know myself a lot but when u really paused from ur hectic life and think, do u really understand urself? do u really know what u need, what u wan in life? i dunno yehz seriously. *shrug* i'll be happy to wake up in the morning and find myself still alive and jus pass each day in a systematic way, able to eat, sleep, run, scream.. yea.
actually there's a theory in sociology which i agree totally with. *oops! revising socio here!* this theory was saying that everyone is an actor/actress. life is their stage and the roles vary in different circumstances. for example at home u are the daughter and u play the role as a daughter. u know, respect ur parents blah blah. at sch u play the role as a friend. and with different companions u behave differently. so when can u really see ur real self? sometimes we just acted too much that we lost our own self. actually everyone has lost their own self. and i wonder whether this 'own self' have ever exist at all.
well some pple like to say woman are hard to understand... u know what? i think so too. cuz i myself dun understand ME. woman... haix... weird creatures eh? why are we born with this complex thinking mind? if not i wont be here thinking and talking abt this too... haix... who exactly am i huh?
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=> Clarine Tham Jia Hui
=> aka Berry, Huihui, Huiz, s0t0ng
=> Horoscope: Sagittarius
=> Birthday: 28 Nov 1987
=> School: Temasek Polytechnic (MArketing)
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~* Taiwan trip!
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